Heavy

I feel heavy. Not from the weight of my body; it is the weight of my heart that is shrinking me toward the earth. Tight and heavy- pulling me in toward myself. So much effort required to sustain an upright position. I just want to curl up until I overlap myself, holding everything close until I am safe. Until all of my outer walls cover my inner walls and I am no longer exposed and vulnerable.  Wishing I was a rolly polly curled up with my armor protecting me.  A little push and I could roll away from the world.